Am I Rude??????

I dont have answer of this question...From last few weeks I get rude with people.I dont care about whatever other think about me coz i feel that I am allrite.May be you me everyone have the same feelings that I am allrite...But some may not tolerate that.

Its an incident as well..Today i am talking with the same shit which i used to think her as baby young.She is the same one on my apartment who behave as baby but she is nasty.I dont have rights to tell someone about this.But I am just writing my feelings.Who cares...

She is one of the youngest on my view.I love to say her sister ..she is a sister some how but she crossed the limit.What you think being a sister ....Does your responsibilty get finished just by telling someone "Dai".You should also think about what someone thinks about you if you feel you are sister of someone.You may think about his likes and dislikes( I am crossing limit)Why should she think about me if she cant think about herself that she is a baby but young.

Topic is not started with my likes and dislikes but its started with her mesh and hygine which i found one of the weakest part of her.

I just make a lots of try not be so in a cool way(wasnot rude) i make her room clean i even clean the floor of her room because i thought that she may get changed beacuse she used to know about it slowly but she give damn it one time,two time i tried tell her again but everytime she makes her face shit when i tell her something then i get on temper last time in some heavy words...She start sobbing....

I was told rude by her friend,by her loving giant bro and even by my friend whom i used to believe him a lot.I think my self may be i am rude..

But yesterday i was just repeating the ways i used to deal with that lets get cooperate lets make something better on home..i see on her face she is totally off...I told her why she pretend so everytime she start her crying again...I was fucked off again infront of all other fucking mates ..that it seems i made her cry ...But i am emotional too ...i have feeling as well ....I can understand a heart.But if some one care of me then i can think of that(I dont mean here that care means she should show her love i mean kiss and hug...I just need a silence where a man can think about himself as well others)So please.......You can tell me as well that i am rude ,I am so ...

gone ....but I want to built my dream world whereever and whenever ......................

Staying With Animals

One of my friend complain on this word "Heaven to Hell"Coz i have keep this title on my msn as well.He told me did you feel the difference between Nepal and Australia.See; Nepal is heaven and Australia is hell for you .Without any argue i tell him yes.
But it is not the fact that I am not using this word to clearify that Nepal is heaven and australia is hell.I dont have anything to say about the nepal and australia because both are part of my life.Just for present sense of feeling i am feeling as coz i moved to a new place where i am staying with five animals at all.
Around 10 minutes from station ,if you follow lonely tree street you can get a house with no 57 in red color.Take a upstairs knock the unit 4 some one may open the white door.while you enter the lounge room you can see a a black Couch with a mattress on the next side and many mesh around .This is the mattress of a baby giant animal who never tried to feel as maturity on him.Eating is his passion ;sleeping is his hobby and mar.......na is his medication to sleep ...but he is broke nowdays perhaps......
When you leave that room and pass the corridor as a small space you can see a small room with a broken blunt on windows and you may feel that all the crazy kids are living on this room because you feel that bedshits are never managed on beds,all the bowls of several weeks are layed down with some cockroach and flies on it.And this is the most mesh room in this house.
Thats the room of beautiful two women who never tried to clean their nose but pretend that they can change the world getting wild on a party wearing a fashionable top and shorts.
When you take a look behind you here is our room.I am in the chair here Infront you.....my 2 room mates ....are out now.You can enjoy if you feel relaxed but i am really fucked up here ...i am missing the days with Ali....thats why it hell for me over here...Up to yet we dont have internet at home i force them to connect .....get it but its difficult to get a chance ......Hi5,yahoo messenger are the most hitted counter.
Feb 4 is the date when i moved here .....more than a month i am staying with them...feeling and attitude to them are changed as everest i dont know why.Making food is the biggest deal here ...and take a good nap is a luck that in one night you get you light on more than 4 times ..huge phone rings are normal.
$60 then after adding 1 more drama Soltini now $48 is the payable rent on week .Screaming from kitchen to bath room are usual ....dish washing has a major issues always...thats not mine ..
I dont know how long i gonna survive here ......................Staying 6 people in a house is not big deal but it differs from the wonder with whom you staying...May be all of these fuckers have same feeling towards mee.but i dont care........................I am just drawing my angle...Finally i write something after a long may be i will continue writing .....i have internet at my computer ...
Same job with steve is heading on....$255 to$495 .......God is with me may be....Other wise i cant imagine to change my course .......But i still yet i dont have the total money ....Lifes goes on............